Undefine

I hate this part. The part where everything seems to be very wrong. You never thought the person that you barely even knew could cause so much trouble in your life. Not to say trouble,but more to a nuisance. I really wanted to be alone right now, and when i say alone, that means without you and anything that has got to do with you in it. So please stop, you are too much now, i don't want to be a part of your life anymore. It's never too hard for me to banish anyone in my life, and that applies to you too. But you have some kind of connection that's keeping me from letting you be punished you see. Don't get me wrong, you are a good person indeed, but when it comes to this type of problem, believe me, you do not want to mess with me. I really cannot do anything much right now, but when it's time, you will know that this side of me actually exists. I'm going to play along now, see when i will finally unable to endure all this shits. And when the time comes, you'll see.

the raya-ness

I is not happy.I has a problem.I don't like them.I want to be where I want to be and with whoever I want to be.I have to put on fake smile.I think I should stop whining now.I have lots to talk but I cannot.I is sad once again..adoi,tensionnnyeee aku!

I am out of my mind..eeeeek!

about them and us

It's exciting to see love is all around

But too much care would sometimes left us wondering

If these will lasts or the other way round

So let's just pray for the best

And accept what's destined for us

p/s:~i love you!

2nd post in just merely 20minutes?

to whom it may concern...

the last two lines does not count..love ya!

i couldn't care any less

the truth is...i can't get my mind off those things.sometimes you have to understand that you are going to face so much things..i mean dreadful things in your life.>eh,lawa la pulak tulisan italic ni.

i mean..throwing tantrums at the age like that?come onnn! i'll never do that eventhough i'm now at the age of where being rebellious is normal..


i am furious,angry,mad,pissed off,disgusted,disappointed.. can you add any more synonyms to that?never i felt that i wanted a real role model more than i do right now.

i have to have a getaway right now so that i won't get knocked off the chair once again!i can feel the pressure now...eh weyhh,aku ade darah tinggi ke?ayamak!mati cepat ni..xsempat kawen.kecewa lah die!huhu...

okay...i just need some time off these pressure,i need peace and tranquility,i need reassurance, i need you, i need them, i need..whatever for me to be normal again.

p/s:i don't want to be loved that much,because i'm not used to it.please understand.

conversations

it's not that i'm not comfortable

no it's not

but if you could just stop making me feel like i'm important

that would be better

i could not foresee the future

neither could i walk through your past

but if you could just bear to be with me long enough

you have what it takes to enlighten me

distracted

i am that easily distracted now..

okay,tu je

dengar2 lagu lama sambil melalui liku liku notes farm management.

*pray hard please*

alahaaaii~

if only there's someone could sing this for me...aii..lagu nak ngantuk2 aje kan..heehe~i'm in the mood..yes,that mood.shut up now..

Falling Slowly by Kris Allen

I don’t know you

But I want you

All the more for that

Words fall through me

And always fool me

And I can’t react

And games that never amount

To more than they’re meant

Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We’ve still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You’ve made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me

And I can’t go back

Moods that take me and erase me

And I’m painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It’s time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We’ve still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You’ve made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We’ve still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You’ve made it now

Falling slowly sing your melody

I’ll sing along

bumi kenyalang~

whatderrr~percobaan hang tak menjadi lah wey..mimpi berangan lalala je kau tau kan...ahaahah!readers,this is a warning for u guys...u will not understand what's goin on.okay,now u can read!

okayy..this got nothing to do with...whatever~credits:factsaboutyou.tumblr

i just did something tonite.bodowneyyy~ntahlaa..i think i did the rite thing.goshhh..kau saje je kan,main2 kejap pastu kau punye hati berubah pun kau tak perasan bile kan??paper dr.kassim pun kau tgk sbelah mate je?fine..mulai besok tidak lagi..kedue belah mate aku gagahkan nanti.crappy shit lah post kali ni...due to heart matters which will remain unsolved until The Right One comes.sheeesshh...

encik robert tolong solve the mystery boleyhhh??

aihhhh~if u dun want to get burn,dun play with the fire la baby...gedik ah..okay cukup tu!start a new day tomorrow...i'll stop all the whines now.thank you peeps!

*p/s~dear sarawak guy, choose..to walk the path of an easy one or the other hard way.either one..i know you'll be just fine babe!^_^...nampak tak muke senyum nii?heehe..

time passes by

okayyy..i know its my study week now..this will just be a short post from me....ouh,one annoying guy keeps calling me any words you can call that ends with = mi.....and he keeps doing this face..

like he's out of breath or sumthg!

ookayy..maybe not exactly like that...ahahah!well,as long as i keeps on laughing, i'm okay with ur jokes..dude~

then one of my dearest got back from her hometown....one more deary left at home experimenting new recipes and gallavanting besides studying...sheeshhh..nak keluar jalan jalan jugakkk!

i haven't studied much and i felt bad but it won't last long,dun wory,thank you very much.<<like i have much time left lah now???

i hope that someone will TRY to contact me as soon as possible,but i think i can stand a month...kinda miss you<<another deary

had a nice conversation with a long-time deary of mine..get a new life rite babe??stop dwelling,start searching..heh,macambest je ayat~ahahah!

ohh not to forget,somebody is being a loner...againnn~who pulls the trigger man?u were just fine the other day..whatever..just another phase and everything will be alriteyyy!

other than that..not much.wow..that is short 'eyh??goin to doze off in seconds..later tods!

credits to factsaboutyou tumblr..love this site!

like a dream

At first i see tis everywhere..

and then i do this...

then i went....

i thought i dreamt about this....

but then....

silly me!idk what's my problem..and if i want to know,i must go thru all the procedures..medical checkups lah whatsoever..takmauuuuu!the small needle used tadi pun was enough to freak me out..i will just eat healthy foods and live healthily..ok doc?d'uhhhh...crap!
or maybe because of that problem lah?..yes definitely that..i'm soo not going to think about it for this few weeks..just let them be.i need to concentrate now.got test tomorrow..only revised a tiny bit tonite,but now i've got to go in the selimut.takut tak bangun pulak besok..gudnite.


p/s: for that special someone..don't worry lah,if he doesn't know how to appreciate you now,he will never do so in future.get over it and find a new one..i'll always be there for you wokeh bebi~ 

me...just me..

ohhh..how i love typing.you know this silly game on facebook called the fastyper?yes..that's how far i love typing.ehh..not far enough kot..^_^"..


any-hoo, the same goes with writing..when i write, it comes straight from heart..eventhough it was like just stupid rants, sketch my own name, my family's, foods and stuffs like that..and i think i'm good at descriptive writing,well not that good lah,some people said they were touched by my essay.(tu sekali ajelah pun) or maybe because i don't express myself that much by talking..yes,writing is better i guess.


when i speak i tend to make people around me angry or annoyed. i can't make good sentence structure, so they can't understand and i'll said nevermind, then they'll be angry.
or....they said something, i heard them wrongly and i respond weirdly then they'll be annoyed..hahah~i'm sorry.well i will try to minimize that..you can't stay at that level for too long, can you?and people don't interact much by writing itself only.so, i will try to express what i want to say correctly and put a little more effort to be a good listener.


okay..this blog always took my time but it makes me feel better..then who cares!gtg..got assignments to do.nite bebis...