Undefine

I hate this part. The part where everything seems to be very wrong. You never thought the person that you barely even knew could cause so much trouble in your life. Not to say trouble,but more to a nuisance. I really wanted to be alone right now, and when i say alone, that means without you and anything that has got to do with you in it. So please stop, you are too much now, i don't want to be a part of your life anymore. It's never too hard for me to banish anyone in my life, and that applies to you too. But you have some kind of connection that's keeping me from letting you be punished you see. Don't get me wrong, you are a good person indeed, but when it comes to this type of problem, believe me, you do not want to mess with me. I really cannot do anything much right now, but when it's time, you will know that this side of me actually exists. I'm going to play along now, see when i will finally unable to endure all this shits. And when the time comes, you'll see.

Life Updates

P/S-This is a very long post

It has been 2weeks since my last post. And so does my intership. FRIM was okay,makes me walk even more and do not have to complain about it. My bike had tayar pancit after a few days. Tak ada pam,so have to walk everyday.haha!The accomodation was poor.A staff told me that the house were meant to be demolished. As soon as we settled down there,we discovered ada tengkorak tikus dalam kolam air bilik mandi!Bukan 1 tapi DUA!Got one of the staff there helped us to clean the bilik mandi. In the mean time,the 4 of us were using the toilet to bathe and sheesheee or poopoo.Pagi jela share 4org,tak lama mana pun nak tunggu giliran.haha!

We've been cooking rice and eat bread or do whichever falls in fast and convenient food category.Nothing much to do,we have no TV nor internet connection,except for the office building.But its fine for me,we can stroll down the waterfall or watch some moviemakers or wedding photoshoots. Our house were located near the streams and river, and I always wanted to stop by on my way back from work to watch the fishes in the water swimming freely.

The joggers will come as early as 6.30 in the morning,the time when i woke up everyday.tengah hari pun ada org jog tau,surprisingly. I think because of the weather here,it was not too warm and matahari pun takdelah terik mana,pokok hutan semua besar besar!Bagus untuk jaga kulit.haha!

Didn't have the chance to do the canopy walk yet,but soon. With one of the eldest staff there,we would not have to pay a single cent.That staff were even born in FRIM,in his old family house,just beside my current house. We've been working on several projects for the time being. Be it leaf cuttings,stem cuttings or seeds, all of them requires monitoring after 1-2 weeks. Learned a lot, and now it's kinda bored when all you got to do is monitor the plant growth only. Maybe more projects to come,soon. Or maybe we should start on our businesss proposal to raise the nursery income, as my supervisor wanted. Yea, work sucks, I know.

Loans are out 4days ago, I wanted to buy so many things but just tahan dulu.haha!Got myself a reebok shoes during a sale so that i don't have to worry i will slip down the canopy walk, since i don't have any sports shoes.Sungguh memalukan,i know. Got E some-things also,he will be surprised. I wanted him here in KL,but he's just too busy.Hope to see him soon,maybe next week.Please please please,don't let me down!

Oh,i turned down the part-time job just now because of my bad bad flu. Am very disappointed i couldn't make it.that is easy money, i tell you! And i can't be more regretful. Maybe ada hikmahnye,bukan rezeki aku,sabarlah.Maybe i will apply for another tomorrow. My flu starts to react badly just last thursday and I felt very sick on friday that i have to take a leave. Sorry ,friends. And my celcom phone were lost-stolen. Lost because it was my fault that have left it inside the cab while looking for my purse to pay the cab. Stolen because when we tried to call the phone,at first it was ringing, but later it was off. So,confirm HILANG! It was the phone that E bought for me,so it has sentimental value to me. So mad at myself beacuse of my own careless-ness.Sorry E,love.

Tomorrow a long lost friend ask to meet me up, but i think i would have to turn him down. Have to rest at home before betul betul ready to go back to nature.haha!That's all for 2weeks update. Will catch up later peeps. XOXO

NOW

Just replace that WE to I and that FLY FROM KUALA LUMPUR to FLY TO KUALA LUMPUR

LOL! The above picture was dedicated specially for E. Boy, I missed him so much. GEDIK  ~_~

 

 

 Apart of thattt,result is out!Just few days back i checked the portal, fortunately,Alhamdulillah,The Most Merciful had borrowed me short-term happiness. Managing to get the pointer above three is a tough job for me.Yeah,read THREE as in 3!I couldn't believe my eyes as I had improved so much from my zaman kegelapan universiti.ahahahah!that damn 3rd semester of mine,will never forget those days.main main je belajar,sekalii result keluar,hambek kau!had to went for a camp specialized for the students whom uncapable to achieve good result.shitty shit.A good experience though. Managed to remind me for the original purpose of entering a university back then,although i don't give a damn at that time.eh,yeke? =P  

E managed to get better than my result,i'm so proud of him.Nahh,nothiing to be proud of kot,dia memang pandai pun.ahahah!He has a long way to go,on the other hand,i only have 3semesters left. Well,atleast i would want to have 2nd Class Upper Degree, I will try to achieve more than that.YEAH!!

Motivational enough for me :)

Oh, and I also managed to land myself to a workfield that has got nothing to do with my course. I'm going to work as a facilitator for events organized by my baba's company. That is,starting after my practical of course. I smell brand new phone..sniff*sniff*..haha! So sad i won't be available to work during classes starting september, i think la..or i would have to skip classes for some pocket money?No,never!don't you dare farah! I'm not that desperate lah kott,but PTPTN didn't knew me well enough.I always need more from them.pleasee lah,bagi lebih sikit this practical semester,alrite dahling?? =)

So,this friday will be going to FRIM to check-in and settle everything for the quarters, but only on next monday i will start practical. Well,basically i'll be doing everyday's job of a worker in a nursery of wild plants/flowers and some lab-work to do and office-work,maybe for their inventories,data entry and stuffs like that. FRIM doesn't pay us interns,so i think the workloads will not be so heavy,plus there's 6 of us, there will be plenty of helpful hands. That's why I applied weekends part time job. Still no reply from the companies,hopefully by this week they will read my pledge.haha!Wish me luck, i need that.

That's all for the rants of tonight.There will be more..i think.Didn't know whether the quarters provide us with internet connection or not. If not,had to wait for the weekend to online at home lah.oh, my house is 20minutes-ride from that place. From now on,if i say RIDE,it means BIKE RIDE,understand? Because I will be riding my bicycle to and fro promptly.WARNING*This is why you should have done the driving license at an early age.* sigh =_=" GOODBYE

Hopefully

Hopefully

I will get that job

Been applying for part-time here and there

Ini semua effect intern xde allowance

1st time keje xde gaji LOL

xbiasew lew i..hihiks

Allah had sent me a person

She's too good to be true

Eventhough i didnt really knew her

She is really kind to me

Hopefully

Allah bless our relationship

and Allah give her some faith one day

Hopefully 

i shall pass my previous exam with flying colors

so that my pngk will improve

so that i will graduate with real 'HONORS'

not that 'hons' on manuscript aje

Hopefully

everything that i planned menjadi

i guess i'm living on a careful mode

experience taught me to do so

and i guess that's what a virgo does

perfection is everything to us,you see

haha!konon perfectionist lah sangaatt =_="

P/S~ skarang tgh gila main moneydrop,tonite je baru 3rd week join and i'm the 56th millionaire online.ONLINE jelaah punn.haha!

P/SS~game mortimer beckett baru habis download!mari main game sampai lebam!!yaay =))

inilah diaaa!muka nerd je kan?tapi adventurous.LOL

its all about da money money money

Money has always been my problem. I always have to work for my money. I mean,trying to convince your parents to fork out some money because your savings are running low-is a work too rite?ngeee..=) No lah,it's always my fault because of my habits of overspending. I'm not good at handling money. You see,i had finally managed to get some amount of money last month,(READ last month!) from my previous work during the holidays actually,yes,that long!3months been waiting for the salary,finally i got it,and throw it somewhere in drain i think. Because i don't see it anymore anywhere near neither the account nor the wallet right now,when i badly terribly misses them. To make things worse,i only have the RM200 book voucher that i can't barely spend to anything other than the boring bookshops. No,i love books,i do! But i do love movies,sightseeing and windowshopping alot more. If only i could trade those vouchers into money..please tell me where i can do so!Please please please..aiseh,mengade ngade la budak ni kan. Tak sedau dek untong!Haha..to make things short,i just need some cash now untuk dijolikatakkan and only with money does the world goes round. If not,how the hell does those people from the past knew this world is round kan kan?mstila pakai duit banyakk woo untuk menyiasat perkara serius ini..LOL!Okay,banyak aku bebel,pasal duit je pun haih~menyampah la kau ni,pi tido jela.NITEE!

p/s-bila kayap beginilah padahnye =_=

Wishful thinking

WARNING*ini post mengade*

this one?

or this one?

Either one,I just don't care.These will goes into my list of -TheThingsIHaveToDoBeforeIDie- 

A big grin for you there E *winkwink* goodnight!

late night post

I always get carried away when watching TV kat rumah.Err..anywhere actually,xkira tempat.LOL.Tadi watched The Myth,a Jackie Chan's.Best sangatt,sbb ada terracotta warriors tu,ala..yg tertimbus same same the maharaja tu..Mansui Mansui Man Man Sui!Ingat?Bagus!Haha..tengok cerita tu and then sambung The Day After Tomorrow lagi,tapi tetiba POOF..it becaaame koko krunchh!ehh tak,POOF..teringat x update blog lagi.Disebabkan harini ada benda best jadi,so nak gebang lahh now..eheh.

Today i got up earlier than usual,eleh,pukul6.30 je pun.sbb wan takde kat rumah,tgh enjoy kat lumut =_=, so rasa bersalah tak takecare atok.Solat,masak air,bancuh teh,potong kuih bakar<<wan yg masak b4 pegi jalan..haha ~_~.Thenn..online online online..watched VD then ada org call ajak keluar..like-now lah,siap now tau,i tunggu!-what theee laah..dengan kain baju tak putar lagi dlm mesin tu,meja tak kemas lagi,kelam kabut aku.huh!

Then 2hours later baru la jumpe minah hot tu..siap buah tgn jeruk lagi kasi wa.heheh..ni sayang lebey ni!Then we went jalan jalan,a friend of hers tagged along until afterlunch time.Nothing much we did..just afew catch-ups and hug hug and kiss kiss..haha!

Back home,POOF..wan dah sampai and then came up stories from her..(tadah telinga)..accident la,budak takde lesen,takpakai helmet la,darah darah,takut takut la..beli jeruk jugak,ikan bilis konon fresh la.haha!Wan is soo funny when telling stories,and what happened throughout her visit to ummi's.Dah habis cerita tu baru tanya,eh sape yg bg jeruk ni lagi?AHAHAHAHAh!And anddd,the most funniest..eh,kau balik terus nak practical lah ni?HAHAHA!Oh,i forgot to mention,i've had told her zillion times that i will came home and do my intern straightaway next month.Siap balik 2kali lagi,ulang alik KB-KL angkut barang2 yang dr sem1 smua tuh,wan still xperasan yg aku nak msuk intern dah?ish ish..comel sungguh wan aku ni.No offense wan, I always love you.

That's all lah summary essay 1hari aku okay,tau tau..boring sikit.And i usually leave the details in my writing.Efek dah lama tak tulis blog kot.Sorry.FIN.

P/S-Trying to get rid a bad habit of mine,always too lazy to capitalize my word in the beginning of a sentence,because i thought the readers will always get what i'm trying to say.memang pun,kan kan kan?

For my E.xoxo

3 months of silence

BACK ON BLOGGER!!!

Oh yesss!feels so right to be able to write again..err, bloggin of course.today's 23rd jan,that makes it 3months dah tak update.heheee..so much to talk about but i forgot dah pun.macam mana eh?hmm..let's start with the reason.

i dun really blog these past few months because i always upload some pictures with my updates,and back then at my new hostel,the line sucks.tgk youtube pun takboleyy wa ckp lu!menyampah sangat sampai i decided to stop blogging for a while.

that's my hostel building at the back.ignore the smile of mr.united.

another reason is,i already got a real-talking-blog,yep that's what i will call him from now on.haha!i share everything with him,more than i could write in this blog.he records everything i did in his mind.now,that's exaggerating,farah oi!ngeee..he's my real-life boyfriend.yep,i used to have an imaginary one.LOL!

my buddy boyfie.he's not chinese okay.LOL "-_-

okay,moving on.the semester going on as usual,studies and all,not to forget,fieldtrips!i love when it is a well-organized fieldtrip slash VAY-CAY-TION!this time,it was organized by my dear classmate,lovely miss izzaty.

that's baby nipah fruit.the juice tasted like rambutan!pic taken at kedah

steamboating at camerons!semua pakai baju berlapis lapis.sssjuukk!

at zaty's uncle's desa antherium apartment.ktorang xbukak kipas pun,still sjuk!

fresh-picked starwberries.nyumm..

another nyummmmm!clockwise,top left is strawberries wth whipcream,yoghurt wth strwberries,waffles with ice cream and strawberry syrup,eskem goreng,my fav ice cream with strwberries and whipcream added loveletters stick and the last one i couldnt remember.slurrpp!

Alrite.finish with the fieldtrips.after some more studies we all go stressed up but no fuss,i've got my besties to forget all the mess with.

gotta have some fun in boredom-land.credits to zaty.

that guy thinks he has hot ass."-_-  ohh,my beautiful dear friends.

the kau-ni-eeww-lah look.LOL

after exams,we all geared up for our internship,at last!cehh,geared up lah sangat,tmpat tggal pun xconfirm lagii oi.okay,me and zaty will be having FRIM,Kepong for our intership place,yan will go for juice manufacturing near home sweet home,fert with the PJ company and acap,the taiping zoo, the place where he's always wanted to live in..err..go to.haha!hope we all get better exam results than ever.*fingers crossed*

Now i'm at home,just arrived last night.got my old buddy nazim to fetch me up at bus station and catch up with each other's life.yep,i know i'm a good listener.your welcome mistah!

Did i wrote too much?yea,i know u guys get tired of reading now so i'm going to stop.next post will it be.have a very goodnight peeps.anddd..XINNIAN KUAI LE!GONG XI FA CAI =)

P/S:~I miss my man.he's somewhere deep in sarawakian village,i can't always reach him.damn you technology,are you jealous of us huh? *_*

happy life comes with a package.when you do not have financial problems,your family is happy,your circle of friends are happy,your boyfriend is happy,your study improve,your result improve,your mood boost up,and you will admit that u have a happy life.ahahahha!i am just happy now,weng weng sikit.pardon my silly faces or words or any of my action if it annoys you.

signed,sealed,delivered,

Farah Hafizah Zulkifli

moderation

i want to lay low..takmau buat apa2 kerja for now..well,atleast buat sikit2 je.i'm tired..class sampai malam and have to ulang alik naik bas lagi.sometimes tunggu dari pagi subuh gajah sampai habis klas maghrib cekadak at campus,baru balik hostel.yea,i am that stinky!sile jangan jalan dekat dekat saya.grrr.....i dun have my own transport..ceh~lesen pun takde lagi nak kecoh kan..anyhow,since i've been to my new hostel,i have not been updating.ntahla..tired..really..got many things to settle.nanti nanti lah update proper.heehee~ohh oh..p/s. Mr.E, I LOVE YOU.

demam sakit pening orang dah tua..=_=

saya demam

rase mcm dah elok semalam

tapi panas balik

suara lagi rock dari ella

oh,si ella tu sama umur dgn mak aku

betul,tak tipu..

sekejap saya sekejap aku..ish

ohh..semalam shopping dgn kawan baik,si Z

takboleh bgtau nama penuh,nanti kawan2 baik die jeles

die dah lama nak membalas budi dgn membelanja aku makan

oh oh..try nak pakai wedges yang takdela tinggi mane tu..jalan 1hari

FAILED

eh eh..tapi pakai la jugak,bjaye sampai maghrib walaupun sakit gile

hebat tak?

terbukti memang bukan gadis ayu ayu

besok nak beraya dgn kawan sesekolah

tapi mcmane ni?demam balik?

mungkin boleh ajak mereka dtg melawat saya yang sakit?

mungkin mungkin..

ohhh..duit raya taun ni macam sikit je..bagaimana mau tukar fon?

tidak mengape lah..when the time comes, i'll change u

sila berdoa saya cepat sembuh,kalau tak..cuti lagi lah saya

sangat tak nak balik kelantan

saya nak kerja dan dapat duit lagi

boleh tak?boleh tak??

okay,kepala dah berat mcm bowling..moh lelapkan mata.bye.

ni muka orang demam jugak 

idung kembang kempis

mata sembap dan berair

mulut pun xboleh tutup

sebab nafas ikut mulut

AHAHAHA!

september

my favourite month

shopping

back to school

my birthday

fun with friends

the raya-ness part 2

selama ni selalu post emo emo je kan kan??haha!okay,sekarang tidak lagi.ahh poyo~
nak raye kan..sape tak gumbira..hello!eh tak tak..siapa nak emo?*teringat pulak orang2 yang less fortunate.
okay,so raya this time raya kat kepong dulu..rumah sendiri..haha..then shah alam rumah sedara,then baru the balik kampung part to lubok china and felda palong the next day.2hari jee??cukup lah tuu kumpul duit,tambah tambah nak beli fon baru..ahahah!berangan~so..raya this time..takde tema.err..penah ke pulak ade tema?haha!our family never put a theme for our baju raya punn.anyways..i've bought zebra color-ed baju kurung..suke!suke!i hope i didnt look fat with those on.sebab stripe die panjang2 kan."~_~....ahahahahahahahah!well,orang dah gedebab dohhh..pardon my fats.omaigaddd..seriouslyy..umi,baba,and those mothers of my old friends i've met recently...SEMUA cakap aku dah makin sehat!awat?dulu chek tak sehat kaa?haha!those are the art of being a malay,cakap pun selalu berlapik lapik nak jaga hati orang kan.bagusss~okay,confirm aku diet nasik lepas ni ikut jejak langkah aizat penyanyi yang kurus tetibe tuuh..hehe..okay,i'm waitin for orang nak datang takbir ni..dah siap hidang segala tadi..meh laaa dtg cepat..xsabar nak rayaaa...and xsabar nak jumpa close family,friends and E!love ya peeps!
SELAMAT HARI RAYAAAA!MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TO ALL.<3<3

the raya-ness

I is not happy.I has a problem.I don't like them.I want to be where I want to be and with whoever I want to be.I have to put on fake smile.I think I should stop whining now.I have lots to talk but I cannot.I is sad once again..adoi,tensionnnyeee aku!

I am out of my mind..eeeeek!

another rainbow-ish cravings!

I WANT THIS BADLYYY!!

reckless

to mr. A

the reasons :

1) i'm childish

2) i'm reckless

3) i'm emotionally unstable

4) you are also childish

5) you are also reckless

6) you are also emotionally unstable  

i have nothing more to say to you

i should not be alive by now..literally.because i had just been backstabbed by my old friend.dammit.mmg Tuhan nak tunjuk la perangai kau kat aku malam ni..bila aku nak face-to-face kau lari pulak.PENAKUT!i should not befriended with you anymore..BACKSTABBER!

p/s~kecik hati tau tak?jahat!

shit happens..~_~

from the bottom of my heart that can't excrete shits..

this is sooo true..=)

wanna do business?sell this kind of shirts to umk people..haha!okay,kiddin.

i just need something rainbow-ish

I WANT THIS FOR MY BIRTHDAY PLEEASSSSEEE.......^_^

not even one thing done

i am not being efficient lately

been DREAMING all day and do house chores.not even went OUT to see the sky because the outside also have awning.only yesterday i went to some place to meet my friends but can't talk much because they are the BUSIEST on earth.can't even go faraway ALONE because not much CASH left in my pocket but i am waiting for it to drop in the temporary hands called THE ACCOUNT.did lots and lotsa blogwalking and tumblrwalking whenever i got ZILLIONS to do but i am just so LAZY.the beginning of my new semester is going to be VERY hectic because of these procrastination.ohh..ohh..im goin to add colors to this LAME post of mine.goodbye.

yes...some greaateer if i live with laziness..'~_~

this are for UMK students..seeerioussly people..!

this is for E...if u know what i mean

this is for A

now let's sleep...again..=P