Undefine

I hate this part. The part where everything seems to be very wrong. You never thought the person that you barely even knew could cause so much trouble in your life. Not to say trouble,but more to a nuisance. I really wanted to be alone right now, and when i say alone, that means without you and anything that has got to do with you in it. So please stop, you are too much now, i don't want to be a part of your life anymore. It's never too hard for me to banish anyone in my life, and that applies to you too. But you have some kind of connection that's keeping me from letting you be punished you see. Don't get me wrong, you are a good person indeed, but when it comes to this type of problem, believe me, you do not want to mess with me. I really cannot do anything much right now, but when it's time, you will know that this side of me actually exists. I'm going to play along now, see when i will finally unable to endure all this shits. And when the time comes, you'll see.

Life Updates

P/S-This is a very long post

It has been 2weeks since my last post. And so does my intership. FRIM was okay,makes me walk even more and do not have to complain about it. My bike had tayar pancit after a few days. Tak ada pam,so have to walk everyday.haha!The accomodation was poor.A staff told me that the house were meant to be demolished. As soon as we settled down there,we discovered ada tengkorak tikus dalam kolam air bilik mandi!Bukan 1 tapi DUA!Got one of the staff there helped us to clean the bilik mandi. In the mean time,the 4 of us were using the toilet to bathe and sheesheee or poopoo.Pagi jela share 4org,tak lama mana pun nak tunggu giliran.haha!

We've been cooking rice and eat bread or do whichever falls in fast and convenient food category.Nothing much to do,we have no TV nor internet connection,except for the office building.But its fine for me,we can stroll down the waterfall or watch some moviemakers or wedding photoshoots. Our house were located near the streams and river, and I always wanted to stop by on my way back from work to watch the fishes in the water swimming freely.

The joggers will come as early as 6.30 in the morning,the time when i woke up everyday.tengah hari pun ada org jog tau,surprisingly. I think because of the weather here,it was not too warm and matahari pun takdelah terik mana,pokok hutan semua besar besar!Bagus untuk jaga kulit.haha!

Didn't have the chance to do the canopy walk yet,but soon. With one of the eldest staff there,we would not have to pay a single cent.That staff were even born in FRIM,in his old family house,just beside my current house. We've been working on several projects for the time being. Be it leaf cuttings,stem cuttings or seeds, all of them requires monitoring after 1-2 weeks. Learned a lot, and now it's kinda bored when all you got to do is monitor the plant growth only. Maybe more projects to come,soon. Or maybe we should start on our businesss proposal to raise the nursery income, as my supervisor wanted. Yea, work sucks, I know.

Loans are out 4days ago, I wanted to buy so many things but just tahan dulu.haha!Got myself a reebok shoes during a sale so that i don't have to worry i will slip down the canopy walk, since i don't have any sports shoes.Sungguh memalukan,i know. Got E some-things also,he will be surprised. I wanted him here in KL,but he's just too busy.Hope to see him soon,maybe next week.Please please please,don't let me down!

Oh,i turned down the part-time job just now because of my bad bad flu. Am very disappointed i couldn't make it.that is easy money, i tell you! And i can't be more regretful. Maybe ada hikmahnye,bukan rezeki aku,sabarlah.Maybe i will apply for another tomorrow. My flu starts to react badly just last thursday and I felt very sick on friday that i have to take a leave. Sorry ,friends. And my celcom phone were lost-stolen. Lost because it was my fault that have left it inside the cab while looking for my purse to pay the cab. Stolen because when we tried to call the phone,at first it was ringing, but later it was off. So,confirm HILANG! It was the phone that E bought for me,so it has sentimental value to me. So mad at myself beacuse of my own careless-ness.Sorry E,love.

Tomorrow a long lost friend ask to meet me up, but i think i would have to turn him down. Have to rest at home before betul betul ready to go back to nature.haha!That's all for 2weeks update. Will catch up later peeps. XOXO

NOW

Just replace that WE to I and that FLY FROM KUALA LUMPUR to FLY TO KUALA LUMPUR

LOL! The above picture was dedicated specially for E. Boy, I missed him so much. GEDIK  ~_~

 

 

 Apart of thattt,result is out!Just few days back i checked the portal, fortunately,Alhamdulillah,The Most Merciful had borrowed me short-term happiness. Managing to get the pointer above three is a tough job for me.Yeah,read THREE as in 3!I couldn't believe my eyes as I had improved so much from my zaman kegelapan universiti.ahahahah!that damn 3rd semester of mine,will never forget those days.main main je belajar,sekalii result keluar,hambek kau!had to went for a camp specialized for the students whom uncapable to achieve good result.shitty shit.A good experience though. Managed to remind me for the original purpose of entering a university back then,although i don't give a damn at that time.eh,yeke? =P  

E managed to get better than my result,i'm so proud of him.Nahh,nothiing to be proud of kot,dia memang pandai pun.ahahah!He has a long way to go,on the other hand,i only have 3semesters left. Well,atleast i would want to have 2nd Class Upper Degree, I will try to achieve more than that.YEAH!!

Motivational enough for me :)

Oh, and I also managed to land myself to a workfield that has got nothing to do with my course. I'm going to work as a facilitator for events organized by my baba's company. That is,starting after my practical of course. I smell brand new phone..sniff*sniff*..haha! So sad i won't be available to work during classes starting september, i think la..or i would have to skip classes for some pocket money?No,never!don't you dare farah! I'm not that desperate lah kott,but PTPTN didn't knew me well enough.I always need more from them.pleasee lah,bagi lebih sikit this practical semester,alrite dahling?? =)

So,this friday will be going to FRIM to check-in and settle everything for the quarters, but only on next monday i will start practical. Well,basically i'll be doing everyday's job of a worker in a nursery of wild plants/flowers and some lab-work to do and office-work,maybe for their inventories,data entry and stuffs like that. FRIM doesn't pay us interns,so i think the workloads will not be so heavy,plus there's 6 of us, there will be plenty of helpful hands. That's why I applied weekends part time job. Still no reply from the companies,hopefully by this week they will read my pledge.haha!Wish me luck, i need that.

That's all for the rants of tonight.There will be more..i think.Didn't know whether the quarters provide us with internet connection or not. If not,had to wait for the weekend to online at home lah.oh, my house is 20minutes-ride from that place. From now on,if i say RIDE,it means BIKE RIDE,understand? Because I will be riding my bicycle to and fro promptly.WARNING*This is why you should have done the driving license at an early age.* sigh =_=" GOODBYE

Hopefully

Hopefully

I will get that job

Been applying for part-time here and there

Ini semua effect intern xde allowance

1st time keje xde gaji LOL

xbiasew lew i..hihiks

Allah had sent me a person

She's too good to be true

Eventhough i didnt really knew her

She is really kind to me

Hopefully

Allah bless our relationship

and Allah give her some faith one day

Hopefully 

i shall pass my previous exam with flying colors

so that my pngk will improve

so that i will graduate with real 'HONORS'

not that 'hons' on manuscript aje

Hopefully

everything that i planned menjadi

i guess i'm living on a careful mode

experience taught me to do so

and i guess that's what a virgo does

perfection is everything to us,you see

haha!konon perfectionist lah sangaatt =_="

P/S~ skarang tgh gila main moneydrop,tonite je baru 3rd week join and i'm the 56th millionaire online.ONLINE jelaah punn.haha!

P/SS~game mortimer beckett baru habis download!mari main game sampai lebam!!yaay =))

inilah diaaa!muka nerd je kan?tapi adventurous.LOL

its all about da money money money

Money has always been my problem. I always have to work for my money. I mean,trying to convince your parents to fork out some money because your savings are running low-is a work too rite?ngeee..=) No lah,it's always my fault because of my habits of overspending. I'm not good at handling money. You see,i had finally managed to get some amount of money last month,(READ last month!) from my previous work during the holidays actually,yes,that long!3months been waiting for the salary,finally i got it,and throw it somewhere in drain i think. Because i don't see it anymore anywhere near neither the account nor the wallet right now,when i badly terribly misses them. To make things worse,i only have the RM200 book voucher that i can't barely spend to anything other than the boring bookshops. No,i love books,i do! But i do love movies,sightseeing and windowshopping alot more. If only i could trade those vouchers into money..please tell me where i can do so!Please please please..aiseh,mengade ngade la budak ni kan. Tak sedau dek untong!Haha..to make things short,i just need some cash now untuk dijolikatakkan and only with money does the world goes round. If not,how the hell does those people from the past knew this world is round kan kan?mstila pakai duit banyakk woo untuk menyiasat perkara serius ini..LOL!Okay,banyak aku bebel,pasal duit je pun haih~menyampah la kau ni,pi tido jela.NITEE!

p/s-bila kayap beginilah padahnye =_=

Wishful thinking

WARNING*ini post mengade*

this one?

or this one?

Either one,I just don't care.These will goes into my list of -TheThingsIHaveToDoBeforeIDie- 

A big grin for you there E *winkwink* goodnight!

late night post

I always get carried away when watching TV kat rumah.Err..anywhere actually,xkira tempat.LOL.Tadi watched The Myth,a Jackie Chan's.Best sangatt,sbb ada terracotta warriors tu,ala..yg tertimbus same same the maharaja tu..Mansui Mansui Man Man Sui!Ingat?Bagus!Haha..tengok cerita tu and then sambung The Day After Tomorrow lagi,tapi tetiba POOF..it becaaame koko krunchh!ehh tak,POOF..teringat x update blog lagi.Disebabkan harini ada benda best jadi,so nak gebang lahh now..eheh.

Today i got up earlier than usual,eleh,pukul6.30 je pun.sbb wan takde kat rumah,tgh enjoy kat lumut =_=, so rasa bersalah tak takecare atok.Solat,masak air,bancuh teh,potong kuih bakar<<wan yg masak b4 pegi jalan..haha ~_~.Thenn..online online online..watched VD then ada org call ajak keluar..like-now lah,siap now tau,i tunggu!-what theee laah..dengan kain baju tak putar lagi dlm mesin tu,meja tak kemas lagi,kelam kabut aku.huh!

Then 2hours later baru la jumpe minah hot tu..siap buah tgn jeruk lagi kasi wa.heheh..ni sayang lebey ni!Then we went jalan jalan,a friend of hers tagged along until afterlunch time.Nothing much we did..just afew catch-ups and hug hug and kiss kiss..haha!

Back home,POOF..wan dah sampai and then came up stories from her..(tadah telinga)..accident la,budak takde lesen,takpakai helmet la,darah darah,takut takut la..beli jeruk jugak,ikan bilis konon fresh la.haha!Wan is soo funny when telling stories,and what happened throughout her visit to ummi's.Dah habis cerita tu baru tanya,eh sape yg bg jeruk ni lagi?AHAHAHAHAh!And anddd,the most funniest..eh,kau balik terus nak practical lah ni?HAHAHA!Oh,i forgot to mention,i've had told her zillion times that i will came home and do my intern straightaway next month.Siap balik 2kali lagi,ulang alik KB-KL angkut barang2 yang dr sem1 smua tuh,wan still xperasan yg aku nak msuk intern dah?ish ish..comel sungguh wan aku ni.No offense wan, I always love you.

That's all lah summary essay 1hari aku okay,tau tau..boring sikit.And i usually leave the details in my writing.Efek dah lama tak tulis blog kot.Sorry.FIN.

P/S-Trying to get rid a bad habit of mine,always too lazy to capitalize my word in the beginning of a sentence,because i thought the readers will always get what i'm trying to say.memang pun,kan kan kan?

For my E.xoxo